2 Sleeps :)

Think my Facebook friends are getting annoyed about my countdown but I don't care *L*.
Rob Thomas on Sunday!! I bought these tickets sooo long ago now and i've been hanging out. Saw him last time he toured and OMG......Awesome. He's at Sandalford this time and I adore that venue but usually, just sit in the general admission, lug the chairs, blankets, food etc. and it's a great atmosphere but I can't be that far away from HIM!!! *LOL* I was in general standing last time and was pretty damn close. I have enough trouble seeing as it is so, well, I bought gold class tickets! *L* Yeah, I know, extravagant but what the hell! They had better bloody well have an area I can stand up though coz I really hate the way Perth crowds in seating just fkn sit there like statues....They don't move, they don't applaud, they don't holler (I do all of those things *L*) and it embarrasses me frankly.

Anyway......2 sleeps to go. I'm even having Monday off coz I don't fancy having had a few wines (probs more than a few), getting all het up over Rob and then getting up at 4am for work.....*G*

I know i'm a bit like a school kid but my music really means a hell of a lot to me....and Rob, well.....He's right up there with Johnny Depp in my eyes so that probably tells you the story.

xxx

Pure Rant......

Just gotta get this outta me.

Why the fkn hell don't ppl just allow you to be who you are?

Ok, I'm on Facebook quite a bit, i'll admit that after work, it's my primary source of entertainment and yeah, maybe I should be out walking, scrapbooking, reading, studying or something else but I like Facebook. I like that I just chill out and play my games and comment on ppls posts.....and then I go to bed and I get up and I start again. Boring??? Yeah probs.

Now i've got ex-in laws making comments about a particular game I play and I think, actually, i've over reacted. I was a bit rude and I could sense the surprise in his response but WTF....I don't care because if you say something to me that I don't like, don't be surprised when I answer you back!

I just ran the scenario past my eldest who I think, from the look, believes I'm insane *sigh*.

Oh well.....what's done is done now. Ridiculous that I would even get het up about this.. But it's made me better to type this out....As always..... :)

Kids!

Had intended to post something about half hour ago....was feeling pretty tired but as I was about to make the effort, got a call from the eldest, via the youngest (free calls between them). "Mum, have you got jumper leads??" "Ummmm yep" Well, Scott can't get his car started so can you........ You get the picture?

Ok, so here I am. Tired, had a coupla wines too actually (thank the Goddess not too many)and all of a sudden, I'm in the car, driving down to meet them......tah dah!!! The saviour! Yep. I rock up, guess what? They've got the car started. Marvellous :) *LOL*

You know what though? I'm glad I was here, I'm glad I got a call and I'm bloody glad that all is well in the end.

Departing warning....."get some jumper leads honey"....."don't call me again ok?" (this one they know they can ignore).

Kids...who'd have 'em??? And more to the point, who'd be without 'em ?? :)

For the love of the Goddess Woman, just let it go!!!!!........

I feel lost and lonely today. It's not unusual for me. I do believe that sometimes I have depressive tendancies but that sounds lame, given that I know people that actually do suffer depression and have to deal with it daily and in a lot of cases, with medication so.....yeah Claire, just suck it up eh?

*sigh*

I can't go into the main reason for me feeling crap today. Probably because it's not really my story to tell and also, because to share it would be somehow dishonourable to the person but what I do want to do is say how "I" feel. I'm sorry to do this and I do hope you'll just indulge me......

This rant might be multiple pronged. It might not....I'm just writing now, exactly as I feel and how I type (trying to pick up typo's as I go *L*)

People let you down don't they? *shrug* We all know that, I can see you going "yeah......geez woman, fact of life!" And I do know it is. But the beauty of this thing is that I can just type and albeit that some of you may read it and make your own judgements about it, well, that's just all the better for me. I'd rather hear it that not.

I've been, for a very many years now, struggling with someone else's problem. Something that should, by my reasoning anyway, have been solved by now. Been fixed...been done with. But, that's MY reasoning and it appears, as it rears it's ugly head once more, that my reasoning is perhaps not that of the other party :)

The trouble is, that every time......every single time it occurs, a little piece of me dies. First, there's tears and selfish suffering, then there's anger and then there's just...WTF do I do now.....Again......

I'm not a fool. I don't suffer fools gladly but you know what, in this I AM A FKN FOOL.

I hadn't meant to actually write all this. I'm actually hoping you won't see it because I had other things to rant on but somehow, now.....I just feel like "shutup".

As I say, this forum is primarily for myself as an outlet but I've put it out there and people are welcome to comment or not.

Blessed be.
C xx