2 Sleeps :)

Think my Facebook friends are getting annoyed about my countdown but I don't care *L*.
Rob Thomas on Sunday!! I bought these tickets sooo long ago now and i've been hanging out. Saw him last time he toured and OMG......Awesome. He's at Sandalford this time and I adore that venue but usually, just sit in the general admission, lug the chairs, blankets, food etc. and it's a great atmosphere but I can't be that far away from HIM!!! *LOL* I was in general standing last time and was pretty damn close. I have enough trouble seeing as it is so, well, I bought gold class tickets! *L* Yeah, I know, extravagant but what the hell! They had better bloody well have an area I can stand up though coz I really hate the way Perth crowds in seating just fkn sit there like statues....They don't move, they don't applaud, they don't holler (I do all of those things *L*) and it embarrasses me frankly.

Anyway......2 sleeps to go. I'm even having Monday off coz I don't fancy having had a few wines (probs more than a few), getting all het up over Rob and then getting up at 4am for work.....*G*

I know i'm a bit like a school kid but my music really means a hell of a lot to me....and Rob, well.....He's right up there with Johnny Depp in my eyes so that probably tells you the story.

xxx

Pure Rant......

Just gotta get this outta me.

Why the fkn hell don't ppl just allow you to be who you are?

Ok, I'm on Facebook quite a bit, i'll admit that after work, it's my primary source of entertainment and yeah, maybe I should be out walking, scrapbooking, reading, studying or something else but I like Facebook. I like that I just chill out and play my games and comment on ppls posts.....and then I go to bed and I get up and I start again. Boring??? Yeah probs.

Now i've got ex-in laws making comments about a particular game I play and I think, actually, i've over reacted. I was a bit rude and I could sense the surprise in his response but WTF....I don't care because if you say something to me that I don't like, don't be surprised when I answer you back!

I just ran the scenario past my eldest who I think, from the look, believes I'm insane *sigh*.

Oh well.....what's done is done now. Ridiculous that I would even get het up about this.. But it's made me better to type this out....As always..... :)

Kids!

Had intended to post something about half hour ago....was feeling pretty tired but as I was about to make the effort, got a call from the eldest, via the youngest (free calls between them). "Mum, have you got jumper leads??" "Ummmm yep" Well, Scott can't get his car started so can you........ You get the picture?

Ok, so here I am. Tired, had a coupla wines too actually (thank the Goddess not too many)and all of a sudden, I'm in the car, driving down to meet them......tah dah!!! The saviour! Yep. I rock up, guess what? They've got the car started. Marvellous :) *LOL*

You know what though? I'm glad I was here, I'm glad I got a call and I'm bloody glad that all is well in the end.

Departing warning....."get some jumper leads honey"....."don't call me again ok?" (this one they know they can ignore).

Kids...who'd have 'em??? And more to the point, who'd be without 'em ?? :)

For the love of the Goddess Woman, just let it go!!!!!........

I feel lost and lonely today. It's not unusual for me. I do believe that sometimes I have depressive tendancies but that sounds lame, given that I know people that actually do suffer depression and have to deal with it daily and in a lot of cases, with medication so.....yeah Claire, just suck it up eh?

*sigh*

I can't go into the main reason for me feeling crap today. Probably because it's not really my story to tell and also, because to share it would be somehow dishonourable to the person but what I do want to do is say how "I" feel. I'm sorry to do this and I do hope you'll just indulge me......

This rant might be multiple pronged. It might not....I'm just writing now, exactly as I feel and how I type (trying to pick up typo's as I go *L*)

People let you down don't they? *shrug* We all know that, I can see you going "yeah......geez woman, fact of life!" And I do know it is. But the beauty of this thing is that I can just type and albeit that some of you may read it and make your own judgements about it, well, that's just all the better for me. I'd rather hear it that not.

I've been, for a very many years now, struggling with someone else's problem. Something that should, by my reasoning anyway, have been solved by now. Been fixed...been done with. But, that's MY reasoning and it appears, as it rears it's ugly head once more, that my reasoning is perhaps not that of the other party :)

The trouble is, that every time......every single time it occurs, a little piece of me dies. First, there's tears and selfish suffering, then there's anger and then there's just...WTF do I do now.....Again......

I'm not a fool. I don't suffer fools gladly but you know what, in this I AM A FKN FOOL.

I hadn't meant to actually write all this. I'm actually hoping you won't see it because I had other things to rant on but somehow, now.....I just feel like "shutup".

As I say, this forum is primarily for myself as an outlet but I've put it out there and people are welcome to comment or not.

Blessed be.
C xx

Where does the time go?

It's very nearly that time where the kids go back to school but for me, this year, there are two things that will be different. My eldest daughter is going to Tafe, a whole different world to High School and my youngest daughter is now an "upper school" kid so that changes the dynamics for her too.

I'm having tomorrow off so that we can go to the high school and pay the fees, get the books and new uniform (of course, they change if for the final 2 years which actually, I think is great) and then on to Tafe to pay fees and hopefully, take a bit of a look around.

It's kind of weird to think that these tiny little girls of mine are now pretty much grown and man, I'm soooooo proud of how they have turned out. Of course, there's the bits and pieces that crop up that give me the shits but I truly count my blessings that "touch wood" there have been no incidents that have caused me to panic or lose the plot. There are a lot of kids out there that do make mistakes and they don't neccessarily come from a bad homelife, sometimes, things do just happen and when you have a relatively easy run yourself, well, all you can do is thank the Goddess (or whomever you choose).

I know we all think our kids are the best thing since sliced bread and that's fair enough but for me, personally, I feel like my girls are not only my daughters but also my friends and that's how I want it to stay.

I'm very much looking forward to the next few years and watching them develop even further and expanding their outlooks and sharing in their dreams and aspirations and just being there for them and with them.

I love my girls so very much :) Bet you love your kids equally :)

Stray - ya

Well, it's the eve of another Australia Day.

What does it mean to you I wonder? Do you feel anything or is it just a public holiday?

I sense that the mood is shifting somewhat and people are becoming more public and noticable with their "Australianism" This, I think, is a good thing. As long as it is for what it is. (ie. no political statements, no racial slurs)

I don't go as far as to put the flags up on my car, although, i've seen plenty of those during the last probably 2 weeks at least. It's kinda cute. Not my scene but out there, in a good way.

Today, we've got Ray Martin calling for (or bringing up probably more appropriate) the debate about abolishing the Union Jack from our flag. That's a very interesting topic coz it's not the "We shouldn't be a Commonwealth State" "There's no room for the Royal Family" argument, it's about OUR flag.

Ok, best be coming clean I suppose. I come from England in the very broadest of senses in that I was conceived there, to English parents, who emmigrated to Australia when I was six. I have absolutely NO allegiance to Britain or the UK whatsoever. As far as I'm concerned, I'm an Australian.

I do think the British Royalty has it's place but it's predominately in Britain and although it's kind of nice when they visit...what fkn difference does it really make if they do or don't???

I'm of the firm belief that we ought to have our own identity now. We are no longer a colony full of the dregs of English society who were shipped to our shores as punishment. Ok, there are probably some who should still fall into that category *l* but for the most part, the immigrants are the people who have made this country what it is...multicultural, diverse, free and absolutely fantastic!

You will go hard to find someone who loves this country more than I. Yep, there are things that piss me off and yep, sometimes I do bitch and moan but mostly, I look at my life, how it is, how free I am and I compare it to others and I think....Girl, you are soooooo fkn lucky.

So in essence, what does being Australian mean to you? What does Australia day mean?

I'm proud as punch to be an Aussie. My girls are Australian born and bred and I hope, so will be my grandchildren eventually. Australia day heralds a time to be thankful and to just celebrate what we do best....relax, enjoy, laugh and be with family and friends. What more to life should there be???

A very Happy, Happy Australia day to you all.

Wish I had something exciting to say........

But no....life is pretty much the same each day atm, although, I have managed to learn a couple of new things (work related regrettably) since my promise to myself to try and do that.

Work is actually boring me again! *sigh* I do this. I start a job and survive on the stress until I've pretty much mastered it and then it's like....Ummmm...."NEXT".
The promises of those in senior management have not yet come to fruition but i'm hopeful that this year, I'll expand my knowledge and who knows, one day, I might just run the show! *lol* I'm cheeky enough and bossy enough I guess. One thing about me is I'll tell you straight...whether you're the boss or not. I'm not one to hold back with my opinion. Not that i'm rude or nasty, I just believe it's best to be upfront and if there's a problem or you have something to say, say it to the person concerned. I've never gone in for this behind your back gossipy bullshit.

I think working with men only for a lot of my working life has taught me a lot. I don't do girlie bitching. That's not to say I can't work with women, I have and do and have made some good girlfriends but truth be told, I prefer to work with men! *L*

So what to do??? The thing is, I'm paid pretty well for what i'm doing and i've done my research, I know that i'd probably need some further education and/or training to get a job with higher salary than I already am.

What would be really good would be to get into the education system....All those holidays...and they are paid pretty well too (I'm talking administrative staff, not teachers). Then, I could have lots of time off and get some part time work or do some study during those times.

Having said that, I've got the perfect hours coz I get in very early and so I leave early too and it's pretty much come and go as you want. As long as I'm doing what i'm supposed to, I can just work times to suit myself. You can't get that everywhere.

The most excitement i've had this week is that we've just had two new roller shutters installed (Woooooo! *LOL*) but actually, it's well overdue on my eldest daughter's room since she's had to put up with no significant window treatments since we moved in (coming up 6yrs in May). The sun comes into her room and the neighbours have a security light that is prone to go on randomly due to wind or whatever else but now, she's finally got some black shutters and the spare room also. Now we've just got to pay for them (hellishly expensive) but they do interest free payment terms so you can't really grumble about that!

Well, this has turned out to be more of a diary entry than a blog so I'm sorry about that!

I'm considering making something up so I appear more "windswept and interesting" to coin a Billy Connolly phrase.

Take care, Blessed be
C x